Have a GOOD LONG CRY......WHY?

 I ran across this saying after having a rough week.  I feel super sentimental and somewhat sad this week.  I think with the combination of my oldest niece Alyssa graduating from Hoover High School on May 24th, Colby getting a new truck ( a symbol of him getting older and gradually slipping away.... a little bit), Mother's Day coming up on Sunday ( and we don't have Mrs. Horne here for the first time), and watching my babies grow like weeds right before my very eyes......... it has been a little rough lately.  I can't make anyone understand what I am about to write, but, it is difficult watching my husband be SO STRONG all the time.  I wish sometimes he would just break down and cry.  He holds it together so well for everyone else.  I know that this Mother's Day will be a difficult one for Scott.  Please make sure all of your loved ones know how you feel about them.  After losing Todd and Mrs. Horne, I NEVER hang up the phone with my family without telling them that  I love them.

And, another thing I want my children to know is that AFTER THEY GET MARRIED... and have children..... the ONLY EMOTION THEY WILL EVER FEEL MORE THAN LOVE (for their babies) IS GUILT!!!!  I fought that "guilty feeling" all day long today because I wasn't able to stay home with my sick babies.  I had 2 nurses out today and I knew that it wasn't an option for me to be off of work.  But...... I hope that I can be there for my babies if THEIR babies need me...... Like my mom was there for me today.  There is NOTHING LIKE THE LOVE OF A MOTHER!